Well , a great morning to everyone . I realised that i have make some mistakes in judging someone. I was wrong . And i am so glad that i am. Once again i get to hear her beautiful voice still echoing in my head . I am not going to jump to conclusions anymore . For this i apologise .
Ok back to my physical training , will be back tonight :]
Lonewonderer
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
The Random
Work work work ... We lifeguards have no life at all. All we do is watch people swim laps . True , we will look at the girls and say which one is hotter, which one is cute blah blah blah. But today , two of my senior , also my best buddies talked about serious stuff. Stuff like education , wife , money , work and future. Now who dare says we guys never think about the future? It is pretty stressful for us , GUYS. We have to make decision that goes a long way . Our man ego makes us wanne support our wife and family . We wanne let them have a good life and stuff. It is not easy at all. There are many routes to choose from. Our decison are all pending , waiting for that something to tell us what we should choose. Well i feel so inmature with them , but is worth it. For i learned something today ... i will think about it.
As usual i think i detect a pattern in you girl . Lol i'm not going to say what yet but i believe i will soon :] . I learn a lot from you also girl . Everytime we talk i will learn something new . I hope i have done the same to you too <3 .
I hope i can get to hear from you soon , This weekend , i really can't wait to go out with you.
Well thats all for tonight i guess , it is 0016 according to my time . Sleep well girl , you are being missed by me .. nitez
Lonewonderer
As usual i think i detect a pattern in you girl . Lol i'm not going to say what yet but i believe i will soon :] . I learn a lot from you also girl . Everytime we talk i will learn something new . I hope i have done the same to you too <3 .
I hope i can get to hear from you soon , This weekend , i really can't wait to go out with you.
Well thats all for tonight i guess , it is 0016 according to my time . Sleep well girl , you are being missed by me .. nitez
Lonewonderer
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
The Happy
Morning , i guess i am too excited .Well this morning has been a very rewarding one. Allow me to start from the very first thing.
I recieved three texts when i woke up. The first one made me scold myself to the max. She says that she was bored!! OMG , i am like suppose to call her to accompany her but what am i doing? SLEEPING??? Great one Edwind , your're the best man . I feel like i am such a totally idiot and such a crass. Why did i sleep so early that day? Why?? I'm sorry girl .
However, i manage to read on to the next text .Well , i feel wanted i guess . This is what it said :
"Night doesn't become beautiful with star studded Sky & Full moon ,
It becomes beautiful when You go to sleep & let the star and moon admire your innocence
Good night ."
Words cannot express the feeling i had . Cloud Nine should describe how happy i felt .
Girl i just wanne tell you this . It is ok if you don't believe in love , or you don't believe in guys.
I understand that guys are jerks sometimes , or they can't understand you better than the way your girlfriends did. However ,you know what , i'm still going to call you bluff and make a change in the way you see things . I promise this to you . I am not going to give up without trying at least 100 times. You said that i understand you better than most guys , true , its not luck or anything to do with psychology . It is just the way my heart feels for you so ya . Things are definitely getting better . Oh i think this is bad , i am starting to fall in <3 again .... hmmmm.
The last text , was not what i expected . She wanne meet me again and again. Again and again i've made things so clear but yet it is just so futile. I know we are still friends , but your effort is scaring me off . I really wish that we can just space out a little more , take a big step back and observe what is going on . Not do things on the impluse .
I must do somethime to it , allow me some time to brainstrom through all the possible solutions.
Meanwhile , today i went out with dad to have breakfast. I guess i have not been a good son . I always knew my dad wanne spent time with me , you know the man to man thing . But i am always busy doing my things . So today we finally had the time to do it , we chatted.
His friend pops by also , well this is where my story starts.
My dad , who lookes so innocent and with hardly any temper is actually someone in his past.
His friend sort of busted him ! I am so amazed . I always want a fighter for a dad. Now he is my idol haha. Nono pls don't get me wrong, its not that i wanne fight or something but i just feels proud that he is one last time but such a great father now. Oh ya , so is my grandfather ! Great the two most harmless people in my life are actually someone haha. I am so going to find out more on what they did . Picture this , an old grandpa whose first word to me is "Ah boy ar , must study hard ar , then can earn lots of money ar. Then goes off to read the newpaper ." Such a nice person .. well life is indeed full of surprises .
Time now is 11.20 am Tuesday 29 April.
Lonewonderer
I recieved three texts when i woke up. The first one made me scold myself to the max. She says that she was bored!! OMG , i am like suppose to call her to accompany her but what am i doing? SLEEPING??? Great one Edwind , your're the best man . I feel like i am such a totally idiot and such a crass. Why did i sleep so early that day? Why?? I'm sorry girl .
However, i manage to read on to the next text .Well , i feel wanted i guess . This is what it said :
"Night doesn't become beautiful with star studded Sky & Full moon ,
It becomes beautiful when You go to sleep & let the star and moon admire your innocence
Good night ."
Words cannot express the feeling i had . Cloud Nine should describe how happy i felt .
Girl i just wanne tell you this . It is ok if you don't believe in love , or you don't believe in guys.
I understand that guys are jerks sometimes , or they can't understand you better than the way your girlfriends did. However ,you know what , i'm still going to call you bluff and make a change in the way you see things . I promise this to you . I am not going to give up without trying at least 100 times. You said that i understand you better than most guys , true , its not luck or anything to do with psychology . It is just the way my heart feels for you so ya . Things are definitely getting better . Oh i think this is bad , i am starting to fall in <3 again .... hmmmm.
The last text , was not what i expected . She wanne meet me again and again. Again and again i've made things so clear but yet it is just so futile. I know we are still friends , but your effort is scaring me off . I really wish that we can just space out a little more , take a big step back and observe what is going on . Not do things on the impluse .
I must do somethime to it , allow me some time to brainstrom through all the possible solutions.
Meanwhile , today i went out with dad to have breakfast. I guess i have not been a good son . I always knew my dad wanne spent time with me , you know the man to man thing . But i am always busy doing my things . So today we finally had the time to do it , we chatted.
His friend pops by also , well this is where my story starts.
My dad , who lookes so innocent and with hardly any temper is actually someone in his past.
His friend sort of busted him ! I am so amazed . I always want a fighter for a dad. Now he is my idol haha. Nono pls don't get me wrong, its not that i wanne fight or something but i just feels proud that he is one last time but such a great father now. Oh ya , so is my grandfather ! Great the two most harmless people in my life are actually someone haha. I am so going to find out more on what they did . Picture this , an old grandpa whose first word to me is "Ah boy ar , must study hard ar , then can earn lots of money ar. Then goes off to read the newpaper ." Such a nice person .. well life is indeed full of surprises .
Time now is 11.20 am Tuesday 29 April.
Lonewonderer
Monday, April 28, 2008
The Feeling
It is a pleaseant suprise in life sometimes , just to recieve any form of acknowledgement from someone you like. It is the thing that makes all the bad times worthwhile . I ran in the rain today. It was kind of tough cause you feel cold and and not tired but the fact is that you are tired! Well did my fair share of training today. Oh man , how i miss her voice . Well hope i can talk to her again soon. I don't mind not talking at all , just letting her voice fill my head is the best thing i can every have.
She is always busy but i will still be behind her . It is ok for her not to know but i am always waiting for her . There is something i always wanted to share ... so here it is .
Oh well i'm lazy , maybe next time haha .
nitez
Lonewonderer
She is always busy but i will still be behind her . It is ok for her not to know but i am always waiting for her . There is something i always wanted to share ... so here it is .
Oh well i'm lazy , maybe next time haha .
nitez
Lonewonderer
Sunday, April 27, 2008
The Decision
When people ask me , whats the plan man? I will say , "The plan is to win". Simple . I have still one more month before my school starts . In this one month i shall train myself to be the best i can be in.
I have already decided on what to do. I shall be very relax and stuff. No pressure at all my girl :].
I am moving on with life and take things one at a time for now. I will not and never will go back to the past and repeat my mistakes anymore. Girl , i am not going to give you up that easily i promise you. Any guy or girl can come along but its ok . I will perserver . A promise is a promise you said .You may forgotten what you had said or promised . Its ok cause i'm gonna make it happen for you.
I feel that this is making me feel sick. The way i feel now is like falling into this endless pit where everything around me is nothing but void. I hope that i will reach the bottom soon .
This is weird but i miss you somehow. Your captivating smile and voice . Sometimes how i wish i can just keep it in a box where i can see and hear it everytime. Right know you are the only thing that keeps me moving i guess. I'm foolish , but i just need it , or my life now will be meaningless.
I may have lost the competition but i still managed to grap a silver for the team. I really want to give it to you ... Will i ever have the chance? This i will keep asking myself this.
I have already decided on what to do. I shall be very relax and stuff. No pressure at all my girl :].
I am moving on with life and take things one at a time for now. I will not and never will go back to the past and repeat my mistakes anymore. Girl , i am not going to give you up that easily i promise you. Any guy or girl can come along but its ok . I will perserver . A promise is a promise you said .You may forgotten what you had said or promised . Its ok cause i'm gonna make it happen for you.
I feel that this is making me feel sick. The way i feel now is like falling into this endless pit where everything around me is nothing but void. I hope that i will reach the bottom soon .
This is weird but i miss you somehow. Your captivating smile and voice . Sometimes how i wish i can just keep it in a box where i can see and hear it everytime. Right know you are the only thing that keeps me moving i guess. I'm foolish , but i just need it , or my life now will be meaningless.
I may have lost the competition but i still managed to grap a silver for the team. I really want to give it to you ... Will i ever have the chance? This i will keep asking myself this.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
The first setback
Fighting is always part of my life , losing is usually not an option for me. Today the Inter-PolIte karate competition is held at Ngee Ann poly. I was Suppose to fight the Man's Open . Due to some resaon i did not have a chance in it . Guess life's never really fair . However i do get to fight in the Guy's Team. Almost lost to this guy who uses he's body and weight to push me out of the ring. But hey , i'm no push over man . Defeated him in the end . However the rest of the team says i'm to violent??? Therefore i did not perform on my second match ... and lost .
Well i guess i'm not compose enough , not experience enough and not strong enough yet. Well i still have one more month to train and stuff . So i am sooo gonna make them regret fighting me next time.
Sometimes i really don't know what has gotten into me. I really wish that i understand how she feels and what she is thinking. I am so dissapointed in myself . Why does i have to go through all this? I do not wanne give up but what can i do? Answers ! I need them . Why lie to me? Just tell me straight in my face so i don't have to suffer in silence anymore my girl . Everytime you lie to me , my heart skips a beat . I have no mood to do anything at all. Pls all i wanne do is hold You tight, would you object if i called you mine?
This blog is purely a mere shoutbox of mine to let my feelings out . Pls whoever scumbles to this blog , keep it to yourself ya. Thanks . Nitez
Lonewonderer
Well i guess i'm not compose enough , not experience enough and not strong enough yet. Well i still have one more month to train and stuff . So i am sooo gonna make them regret fighting me next time.
Sometimes i really don't know what has gotten into me. I really wish that i understand how she feels and what she is thinking. I am so dissapointed in myself . Why does i have to go through all this? I do not wanne give up but what can i do? Answers ! I need them . Why lie to me? Just tell me straight in my face so i don't have to suffer in silence anymore my girl . Everytime you lie to me , my heart skips a beat . I have no mood to do anything at all. Pls all i wanne do is hold You tight, would you object if i called you mine?
This blog is purely a mere shoutbox of mine to let my feelings out . Pls whoever scumbles to this blog , keep it to yourself ya. Thanks . Nitez
Lonewonderer
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