It will come it will come
End.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Did you know of my heart? Of the days that I spent really thinking of only you?However as my heart for you grew as much as possible , I had to have a even harder time. I had to fall into the fire.Now because I am worn out, I don't have the confidence to look at you.Yea, I hate myself too for wanting to act selfish by turning my back on you and running away.However I found out too late, when I knew that I found out that I liked you. But then it was too late, everything had changed. I, who was so poor, had lost all the confidence and strength to talk to you.But I felt awkward about myself for thinking that, that was fine like that.I really didn't know that this would be this hard until now. I realized it too late.
All of this will probably sound like an explaination to you, but my love was only you.Yea, you must know just this one thing, that there is no one who can love you as much as I.All of this will probably sound like an explaintoin to you i guess , but my love was only you.To me who is turned around looking at you,There is now more sadness. Oh baby.I can't let go of the finished love. I can't cry over the sadness. Oh girl, please...
The saddened voice of my friend washes over my heart.The ended love story that was already wrong to begin with.I can't even ask of the pain of my friend and the Sadness that I can't understand, so I sing a song. You really loved that girl who was like a flower petal, and for Her you spent a lot of time alone, preparing love? The tears that you she'd so that that one flower could bloom, could not protect the light and so the flower became dirt and blew away. As you passed the many days and nights with a sigh The last thought of decision comes to a conclusion roughly.That by no means does the end of love for her, for you come easily.Always allyou had is a love that was never granted, Meets up there in the sky as two lights.You will become a shooting star drawn in the sky and in the next life that love will surely be granted, I pray.
My friend still loves that girl.However for her, my friend says he's going to leave.When I think that this is love, I can't breathe.So my friend must still be crying.
To me who is turned around looking at you,There is now no more sadness. Oh Girl.I can't let go of the unfinished love.I can't cry over the sadness. Oh girl, please.
All of this will probably sound like an explaination to you, but my love was only you.Yea, you must know just this one thing, that there is no one who can love you as much as I.All of this will probably sound like an explaintoin to you i guess , but my love was only you.To me who is turned around looking at you,There is now more sadness. Oh baby.I can't let go of the finished love. I can't cry over the sadness. Oh girl, please...
The saddened voice of my friend washes over my heart.The ended love story that was already wrong to begin with.I can't even ask of the pain of my friend and the Sadness that I can't understand, so I sing a song. You really loved that girl who was like a flower petal, and for Her you spent a lot of time alone, preparing love? The tears that you she'd so that that one flower could bloom, could not protect the light and so the flower became dirt and blew away. As you passed the many days and nights with a sigh The last thought of decision comes to a conclusion roughly.That by no means does the end of love for her, for you come easily.Always allyou had is a love that was never granted, Meets up there in the sky as two lights.You will become a shooting star drawn in the sky and in the next life that love will surely be granted, I pray.
My friend still loves that girl.However for her, my friend says he's going to leave.When I think that this is love, I can't breathe.So my friend must still be crying.
To me who is turned around looking at you,There is now no more sadness. Oh Girl.I can't let go of the unfinished love.I can't cry over the sadness. Oh girl, please.
Monday, May 5, 2008
The Plan
Yes , i am starting school in less than a month , a mixed feeling for me. To keep myself busy, i will be preparing for the Milo Karate competition in Malaysia , learning how to use the Nunchaku and if i have the chance the Bo staff.
The situation seems pretty bad for me now , unable to able to advance or reteat. I really don't wish to be just somebody , I want to be that someone . However i have no opportunity to get to know her better . Maybe that someday will come . Wait , i am NOT Emo or what . I am just letting things out to this shit blog that may serve me as a memory in the future . To prevent myself from making the same mistakes twice ? More or less i guess.
Well this is the ninth entry for this blog . I will end it at the tenth , then this blog will be offically dead forever. The last post would most likely to be june 1st , the last day of my extended hols. Its going to be long people , a whole month sumarised into one entry. Unless the winds of change appear , i guess that will be the last of My ShoutBox :[ .
Well i've gotta move on with live , i failed twice already , this third one is gonne be a blow to me.
Hey girl pls don't say to me that you wanne be good friends with me. Thats just teasing me . Girl it's best you leave now , say good bye to me . Cause girl you should know that i ....
Lone
The situation seems pretty bad for me now , unable to able to advance or reteat. I really don't wish to be just somebody , I want to be that someone . However i have no opportunity to get to know her better . Maybe that someday will come . Wait , i am NOT Emo or what . I am just letting things out to this shit blog that may serve me as a memory in the future . To prevent myself from making the same mistakes twice ? More or less i guess.
Well this is the ninth entry for this blog . I will end it at the tenth , then this blog will be offically dead forever. The last post would most likely to be june 1st , the last day of my extended hols. Its going to be long people , a whole month sumarised into one entry. Unless the winds of change appear , i guess that will be the last of My ShoutBox :[ .
Well i've gotta move on with live , i failed twice already , this third one is gonne be a blow to me.
Hey girl pls don't say to me that you wanne be good friends with me. Thats just teasing me . Girl it's best you leave now , say good bye to me . Cause girl you should know that i ....
Lone
Sunday, May 4, 2008
The return of the setback
I don't wanne run away but i can take it , i don't understand. What have i done? What did i do wrongly? I have really done my best , really ! Its ok .. i will wait . I guess all i had was just false hope. I've asked for it , people tell me in my face . True true , i am stupid enought to ask for it . I was just trying to do what i think was right. At certain points i really feel like giving up. I'm pretty exhausted right now . I hope i still can last.
Why am i doing this ? Cause i feel that i find you special. I really wanne hold and feel your touch .To me now all i can feel is rain inside me . A one hundred tonne of weights is pushing down my heart , it hurts . Well sometimes i hope i can be invisble . So i can just follow y ou quietly , making sure you are safe . Or i can be just like a shadow , always there for you but you will never notice me.
I am in no position anyway , i hate forcing people to do things. I only hope that i am have that fair chance . Once is enough . Its true i will not be giving up so soon , but once i feel that we are turning cold to one another , don't worry , cause i will back out .
Is there anyway that i can make this thing work? I really wish for some answers. Searching them myself is hard , i make mistakes . This is not good at all.
Well , i have no idea what am i suppose to do now ... i hope one day , i will get the answers.
For now , i will just go missing for a while in her life ... till i find the right time to be back.
Maybe i will find a gun , load it , cork it , and pull it for now...
Lone
Why am i doing this ? Cause i feel that i find you special. I really wanne hold and feel your touch .To me now all i can feel is rain inside me . A one hundred tonne of weights is pushing down my heart , it hurts . Well sometimes i hope i can be invisble . So i can just follow y ou quietly , making sure you are safe . Or i can be just like a shadow , always there for you but you will never notice me.
I am in no position anyway , i hate forcing people to do things. I only hope that i am have that fair chance . Once is enough . Its true i will not be giving up so soon , but once i feel that we are turning cold to one another , don't worry , cause i will back out .
Is there anyway that i can make this thing work? I really wish for some answers. Searching them myself is hard , i make mistakes . This is not good at all.
Well , i have no idea what am i suppose to do now ... i hope one day , i will get the answers.
For now , i will just go missing for a while in her life ... till i find the right time to be back.
Maybe i will find a gun , load it , cork it , and pull it for now...
Lone
Thursday, May 1, 2008
The Big Brother
This is weird , i am posting in the morning again ... hmm.
Well today i did something totally off my capabilities. I have to baby sit 4 young girls. I was like great .. someboby help me! Age starting from 3, 4, 5 and 6 . The way the girls do things are so different due to the age . Even if its one year difference. I have to chase them from one end to another , worry bout them getting injured. If they do how the hell am i supppose to answer to their parents? I need to be the judge to make sure they don't quarrel over the most insignficant things . And then start chasing them over and over again .
Well its kind of tough beong a big brother in guess ..
I am starting to miss her voice again :[ . At least i know i still can get to see her sometime this week hehe. I have to prepare a little something for her , i hopes she likes it .. It is what we npcc boys love to drink . Our very own brew of lemon honey , hope that it will smoothen her throat and make her voice high again haha. (if that is what she wants).
Well i am gonna start mixing and testing the drink now , see ya!
Lonewonderer
Well today i did something totally off my capabilities. I have to baby sit 4 young girls. I was like great .. someboby help me! Age starting from 3, 4, 5 and 6 . The way the girls do things are so different due to the age . Even if its one year difference. I have to chase them from one end to another , worry bout them getting injured. If they do how the hell am i supppose to answer to their parents? I need to be the judge to make sure they don't quarrel over the most insignficant things . And then start chasing them over and over again .
Well its kind of tough beong a big brother in guess ..
I am starting to miss her voice again :[ . At least i know i still can get to see her sometime this week hehe. I have to prepare a little something for her , i hopes she likes it .. It is what we npcc boys love to drink . Our very own brew of lemon honey , hope that it will smoothen her throat and make her voice high again haha. (if that is what she wants).
Well i am gonna start mixing and testing the drink now , see ya!
Lonewonderer
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