Lots of things went through my mind recently. In fact i was wondering how i actually managed to think about so many things one after another. Lets start with the current one. I want to cut my hair till nothing is left , get a half shoulder tatoo , with my families name tatoo on me in some unknowned language. I also wanne live on some deserted island alone, cutting myself off from this fucked up world. Maybe visiting it once a year or something to see my family. Still having some random flash back. Lady luck has not been with me recently. I wonder where she has gone to. What i wanted seems to be so farway, with cork ups and all kinds of shit happening. Its is either it goes against my principle or it just seems to be belonging to someone else already. Hmm and something is missing in me. I hate politics. Especially when i am involved in it. Being neutral allows me to see more but eventually i will become in it, whether i like it or not. Damn it . I have a need. I wanne learn kendo ... anyone?